When I leave Israel, there’s always a part of me that wonders what if I get stuck outside and can’t come back.

I know that sounds dramatic, but it has actually happened to me.

I used to try to explain it by saying I don’t have enough merits and the land is spitting me out, or I did something wrong.

But now I try to reframe it for myself.

Sometimes Israel is just not where Hashem needs me to be, even if it’s where I want to be.

And even if I don’t like the plan He made for me, I still need to keep showing up and trying to be the best version of myself and not lose it because I didn’t get what I wanted or how I planned it.

At the end of Parshat Achrei Mot, the Ramban says: don’t rely on yourself to “do better” in the moment. Build safeguards ahead of time so you don’t end up there.

And then in Parshat Emor, there’s a short story about a man who gets into a fight with someone else and then blasphemes Gd. He loses control, says something he shouldn’t, and it ends with him being put to death.

This story seems strange and out of place, right after the menorah and the showbread, which are about consistency and routine in our relationship with Hashem, and right before the laws about how we deal with other people and responsibility in society.

The placement is showing you that our routines with Gd and our spiritual life allow us to have a foundation on how to interact with people in the real world. The space between the ritual and the real world is the place we work on ourselves.

If you don’t have something steady in place, you don’t rise to who you want to be in those moments. You fall to whatever habits you have (good or bad).

So yeah, I would love to be at home in Israel right now, but that isn’t where I can best be of service at this moment.

And I have built enough consistency into my life, routine, and faith that I can handle the shift and still show up as the best version of myself in the situation I am in, even though in truth I am a little bit exhausted.

And I see this all the time.

You tell me you want things to be different.

You want a calmer home and to feel more in control.

But you’re still relying on “I’ll figure it out when I have time” instead of making a change.

It isn’t because you aren’t capable.

It’s because you aren’t focused on building structure and giving yourself real accountability.

And that’s what we build inside Journey to Organization.

It’s not a course you watch and then forget.

It’s live working sessions, real structure, and built-in accountability so you actually follow through.

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